How's this for a dream...

This is usually one of my stops. I wait for joe here, and while doing
so, I always encounter this notice above.

I find it terribly amusing! I can't believe someone is living this
role! I hope this is a movie ad of some sort.

Anywho, gr8 morning and have a laugh, coutesy of the nameless.

All I have...

Is now. Not the past, not the future. NOW!!! I have to focus on here
and now.

I saw you

Looking for me, looking into the studio to see if I was there. I saw
you from downstairs. It was sweet.
I told you I was leaving and you asked if I wanted to eat. To which I
replied, I'm having dinner with my sis and dad but thanks.
Ok...I'll see you...tuesday, monday. Yes monday...and I said, yes
tomorrow.
Wow so many days in a row.

And yes, it is so many days in a row. Next week will be the same,
friday, saturday and maybe sunday. Maybe.

It made my heart smile and my brain shut down. I don't care what
happens, or doesn't happen, I like this feeling. It's all mine.

Btw, thanks for the cd's!!! You even brought 2 of the ones I
requested!!! :D :D :D

Laaaaa diiiiii daaaaaa!!!!

The hub...

Aaahh, the hub of the city. I've never seen it during daylight and it's
rather beautiful! So much going on. Cars, people, movement.

Constantly moving. Don't know to where, but moving.

It was HOT today. If this is any indication od what the summer is going
to be like, I'm in trouble. It was not only hot but huuuuumid!! So
humid people upper lip sweat was sweating!

I had the pleasure and blessing to be in an air conditioned studio.
Having a relaxed day, sort of, and enjoying the coolness. I stepped out
every so often and felt the heat wrapping me up and holding me.

I went on a roller coaster. Emotionally speaking. And here's what I've
decided. The journey is what is important, not the outcome, not what
may happen, not what I want to happen, but the journey. The state I'm
in.

I was saddened for a moment but I want to feel that for everyone!! Not
just for one person, but for everyone, and everything!

I've said it before and I'll say it again, I wanna love the world and
ask for nothing in return. The sun never says hey I've lit up your
world, now what are you going to do for me??

So yes, I was on a roller coaster and decided I like this love feeling.
No matter what.

I realized

That it has been a while since I've posted something. I've been running around and having a great ole time!!! I can't even remember the last thing I wrote about...ok so since I can't remember here's what I've been up to.

I had this last weekend off from the shoe store so I ran amuck with Ms. Irish. We went to a Green Party that was hosted by Whole Life Times and LA Green drinks. We went with a couple of other people from the Temple. It was fuuuuun! We left before the attendees became belligerent from the alkie they were serving. It was very cool! As we walked in, we were handed these little rocks and then asked to place them in our desired charity vase. It was quite fabulous, and inspirational!

Afterwards we headed home and crashed.

We got up sunday with the intention of taking a Yoga class, but did not make it on time. So we went to the local coffee shop and relaxed. I decided I felt like cooking so off to the grocery store we went. I made blueberry waffles with fresh fruit on the side. Yuuummmerz!!!

We got ready, while watching Jab we met, and Indian movie, and proceeded to go to the hogtastic land of Topanga for an Earth day celebration. Ms. Irish was doing some marketing for our beloved Swamiji. We had a fab-o time and even saw my friend Amanda. After we got done there we drove down the coast and stopped at the SM pier. It was quite breezy out but beautiful none the less.

We left the beach and headed to my house where I cooked us up some potato leek soup and pasghetti. Yes pasghetti folx, you read right. We had an awesome dinner and watched the rest of the movie!! At about 11ish I drove Ms. irish back home. Had a splendorific weekend!!!! Every moment is a miracle! Don't forget that, and don't take it for granted.

Monday it was back to work. It was quiet and serene.

So that was my weekend. Just keeping you updated...whoever you are!

Oh, yeah. Me and Ms. Irish met an interesting fellow who does a performance/comedy of some sort. Hoping to check him out soon.

over and out.

love and respect.

What a Godly weekend!

My original intention was to go to Topanga and dance, whirl. Yes
whirl...and whirl, on a mountain top to my favorite (for this moment)
Nithyananda cd.

Existence had another plan. ;)

I had to work on Sat. so we had to head to Topanga Saturday night
instead of Friday.

Amy spent the night on Friday. It was fuuuuun! We went to Raul's tacos
on Firestone. Grubbed up a quesadilla...yummmerz! Rented Conversations
with God. I saw my video bf...hahaahhahaaa.

We ended going to sleep around 1ish, maybe 2.

Got up the next day to be @ Dancing Shiva @ 745 am. Yes...a.m.! We
had to leave the house @ 7. Lol.

We had lunch @ the Grove at the Crepes place....mmmm....mmmm...good!!!

We ended up leaving Dancing Shiva @ 4:30ish.

We took off to Topanga @ 6:30 pm. We got lost, of course. Lol. Me and
her could drive down the street and get lost. It's beautiful!! So we
get back on track and I forgot I wanted to stop for coffee.

We finally get to Amanda's and she still looks like she did in high
school. Beeeautiful! I love her to pieces!!!

So Amy and I are craving coffee. Amanda has tea. Lol. She gives us
directions to the downtown area of Topanga. If you've never been, it a
lot of windy roads, and trees, and canyon. Extremely beautiful and
divine! Nature. We were blessed to be there.

We get to the coffee place and it just so happens (ya right) that the
yoga studio in the plaza was having a Art of Living speaker Rishi-ji. I
wanted to go in but was thinking of Amanda waiting for us cuz she was
taking us to a party/get together for one of her friends.
Amy: "lets go in for a minute."
Me: "I don't know, I don't wanna have Manda wtg."
Amy: "ok lets get into the car and contemplate."
Me : "ya that's a good idea."
I get in and all of a sudden my body starts to vibrate...and I say to
her "get outta the car, we have to go in." I knew we had to.
We walk in and sit. They were in the middle of meditating so we joined
them. It was wonderful!
As we get up to leave Rishi says, "please, turn on the lights so I can
your faces" speaking to the whole group but it was said as we got to the
light switch. It was awe-some!!! Godly, divine!!!!

On Sunday we met Amanda's bf, who is a great spirit! Great vibrations!
We went out to breakfast with amanda's friend, amanda's bf, amy and I.
It was deeeelicious!

We decide to go the beach cuz Malibu is so close to her. She took us to
point dune (?) and it was peaceful. Amy chanted and then we all
mediatated, or at least amy and I did.

We drive home and I get off on robertson, cuz I need to make a bodhi
tree stop.
Amy: "lets go to the hare Krshna temple"
Me: "lets do it."

We couldn't find parking so I'm like ok if we r supposed to be here,
we'll find parking and as soon as the n in parking came out some guy
walks up to his car and leaves!!!

We park and enter temple. The vibrations in there were intense!! I was
in a state of love!!! And bliss.
We chanted the mantra. Hare Krshna, hare Krshna, krshna, krshna, hare,
hare, hare Rama hare Rama, Rama, Rama hare hare. And sunday was lord
Rama's bday. And I got to dance!!!! I love lord Krshna!!!

They fed us with Godly food and it was scrumptious. Full and in bliss
we head to bodhi tree.
I picked up a good book about courage written by Osho.

I was dehydrated and needed water asap. Got it and Amy drove to her
house. We chilled and chatted and recalled the events of such a divine
and blissful weekend. God brought us together for a reason and I'm ever
SO GRATEFUL! I love her and she inspires me. Thank you God!

And that was the weekend I was blessed to have. Life is great if you
allow creation, existence, divinity to lead and you just hold on. You
will not be led astray, but rather have some of the best, most blissful
moments. Surrender, surrender, surrender.
I surrender to existence, I left my shoes and my mind @ the door.
love and respect.

I enjoy...

Coming to the laundromat. I know, I know...some of you are like wtf?
But I like the fact that I can take care of 4 loads @ one time.
How I can sit and read without being bothered. How little kids run
amuck in this place playing everything from hide n seek to tag.
I like the clean smell. I like that I can watch novelas, or ray
romano.
How I get done in half the time.
I like the old ladies who have been hardened by life getting joy from
watching tv and washing clothes together, sort of like doing laundry in
your living room.

But above all else, I enjoy how the old man who runs this spot thinks
his saggy balls has a chance with me. It makes me feel 100 yrs old!
I'm sure all of you are quite jealous, but you shouldn't be. He only
own one laundromat and....yes there's more. And he lets me watch
whatever channel I so choose.
dripping with sacrasm...time for a shower.

Another blessed day...

and I've survived the morning! of course, i trusted! I got off the bus this morning and danced my way to work....literally. I was in such a state of bliss! and gratefulness!

It's Wednesday!!!!

Yipee!!!! Today I go to Dancing Shiva!!! Woo hoo!!! Sorry I got side
tracked on twitter. Man that is awesome! Check it out if you haven't,
and follow meeeee!
Everyday I'm just trusting that the universe will provide and that's a
beautiful thing! It's such a freeing experience! To not worry (or to
worry a lil less) and know that I'm never alone. I'll never be alone.
I love my spirit enough to embrace the universe and let the wind take me
where it may.
Amy and I are going to Topanga canyon, where I'll finally be able to see
my bff from high school!!!! I'm super duper excited! I haven't seen
her since high school! We've spoken a few times since I found her
facebook, of all places! Lol! At least the internet is good for
that...stalking old friends...hahahaa...just kidding folx. But
seriously, I'm am as excited as a lil kid on christmas b4 opening the
presents!!! It's going to be wonderful!!!! My newfound sister in
spirit and my old sister in spirit hanging together...the 3 of
us.....wow! It's going to be beautiful!!!!
Ok...that's all for know.
love and respect.

Thinking...

But trying not to. It's going to be a phenomonal day!!!! I feel it!
Is it supposed to rain today?
love and respect.

Interesting...

I camt to have dinner @ Carino's...and I went to the bar cuz I thought
it would be faster....
Haha...
It wasn't.
I had to sit in the restaurant and have now been served. I came here
last week and maybe the bartender hated us?? No...but maybe he wasn't
happy with his tip?
All I know is that I sat there @ the bar for a good 10 minutes before I
made the decision to get a table in the dinning area.
I'm glad I did...the waitress is lovely, and I'm sure the meal will be
as well!!!!
Yummerzzzzzz!!
love and respect.

Today...

Is slow and I'm bored. I had a great weekend! Friday I checked out a
great band from Sweden! They were awesome!!! Thanks to Dj for
inviting. We had quite the experience. Man I love that kid. He's
awesome and I hope he knows it! I would tell him but I don't wanna get
him excited...lol!

Saturday I took in a part of the Ayurveda program @ Dancing Shiva.
After which I took a class and it was awesome!!! Thanks Miyuki. Headed
to Vedic Temple and they had a celebration going on. I ended up buying
the meditation cd and gettin Mendhi!!!! I hope the pic show up. I got
home and crashed!!! Too tired. Woke up @ 4 am, went to bed (cuz I was
on the couch...that's twice in 1 weekend?) and woke up this morning for
work.
Life is good, life is great!
love and respect

And now I present...

A wonderful opportunity!!! For me, that is. This morning while riding
the bus I was reading guaranteed solutions. Well I got to a part that
says I should let go and let the universe...and so I decided that I want
to do that. It wasn't even a decision really, it just is. It's what I
want. I want to be in streets fighting and knowing I am with Existence,
if I fall, I will fall on Existence lap.

During the ride on the bus, I prayed for this. I decided I'm ready to
let go and let God, as Dr. Wayne Dyer says. I receive a phone call from
Amy, my dear Amy, and she had a thought...why don't I learn to do the
classes in Spanish. Why don't I be a teacher for the Life Bliss
Guaranteed Solutions program!!!!!

Things are happening and I can't even explain them, nor do I want to. I
want to enjoy these moments...bask in them and realize that there IS
something bigger than you, me, us, we. There is no you, me, we...it's
us. We are all one. One with Existence. I had a great experience on
Wednesday @ Dancing Shiva. I went to grab lunch and decided to eat @ the
park, which was highly recommended by Mas. I sat, ate, watched the kids
play...and then decided to take the walk around the park. Upon doing
so, I was overwhelmed with a feeling of.....of love. Love for
everything I was seeing. The grass, the trees, the flowers, the
mosquitoes, the doggies, the people. It was quite beautiful and
extraordinary. I hope one of many.

So I say it here, with a heart full of gratitude, love and respect...I
am ready! I want to know what real love is, I want to feel my heart
overflowing with love. Love for all no matter what, who, when , where.
I want rid my ego and let Existence take over. I want to know
Existence. Feel it coursing through my veins. I want to know real
love. And always be in the state of being in love.

love and respect.

Last night

I went to visit Maryanne at her job. She's a bartendar @ a bar in our
hood, well not her hood - but my hood. So I show up @ abt 7ish. Ask
for a virgin Bloody Mary, cuz I'm no longer drinking, and chill with the
crowd. Her roommate was there with friends and family and it was a cool
vibe.

Well about 2 hours later of course everyone is pretty tipsy by now, and
a customer, who was a friend of her roommates, starts to argue with
Maryanne about payment for drinks. First off, this guy had been buying
round after round, so he was pretty buzzed. Secondly, he didn't know
what the hell was going on. It went a lil something like this...
Maryanne: so that's gonna be $12.50 (cua they was drinking brewski and
I was drinking water at that point).

Drunk guy: ok well here it is (and he pushes like 8 bux her way).

Maryanne: Ok it's 12.50.

Drunk guy: yes and here it is.

At this point she looks @ me AND I TOTALLY GET IT!!! *EPIPHANY*
(Fyi...last year I was Maryannes #1 scholar in the drunk category)
I now understand the whole it sucks to be sober in a room full of drunks
thing. It was so frustrating to have explain to mr. Drunk guy that he
had not paid for the last round and he was being charged for 2
rounds...it was so frustrating she let it go. I would have too, there
is no point in having a discussion or rationalizing with a drunk while
you are sober. It does not work and it's frustrating.

At that moment I was sooooo happy to be sober!

And that my friends, confirmed that I need to stay sober...because I
can't afford to not be 100% here.....now!

Aregato (once again, mr. Drunks words!)